Self-Love

I have always searched for love in my life from outside sources, I find myself time and time again searching for the feeling of validation or acceptance from others and associating that with love. It has become a bad habit really something I need to find within myself I believe. I look for outside validation, because it is hard for me to accept that I am a person worthy of being loved accepted, so if somebody else believes that then it must be true right? right? The more I think about it the more it is silly to me. Everybody is worthy of being loved accepted at least that is what I say to other people, so why do I have such a hard time saying it about myself?

I feel that I am moving in a new what I like to call chapter of my life. About 3 weeks ago I decided to put my health first, my education first, and overall, myself first. I am on a journey or a chapter that I am unaware of how long it will be of self-discovery, self-love, and self-acceptance. In reality I have been doing this for years but what is different about this time is I am not doing it for outside sources, and I am not using others as a sense of acceptance and love I am using me to do that. I am doing this for me to find the love that I deserve for myself.

So far, I am not going to lie to y’all it has been hard. I find myself constantly questioning my worth, I am thinking about myself to much, should I really be putting all this effort into myself? Am I worth it? Time and time again though I remind myself that I am!

I would like to experience true love from somebody else someday, but for right now I need to find the love from myself first. I don’t know how long it will take but I know that I am worth it. ❤

-Claire